midknightofthedead:

no….

could it be?

What the hell????

Holy shit…

HOLY SHIT!!!!

Zero from Borderlands 2

Zero from Code Geass

*mind blown* Vault Hunter Zero is the offspring of Lelouch vi Britannia

So I worked myself out a lot more this time.. I’m totally feeling the burn still now even tho I got off the gym floor at 7:44pm.

I tried to do a bunch of shoulder, arm, and back, but I dont think it phased my body that much (guess I’ll find that out on the morning.) How ever I did do as much leg exercises and I can feel it when I just walk up and down the steps.

I’m glad I pushed myself even more. I want to feel that burn. I want to shed some pounds.

Any feed back for when I go next? I may going Wednesday *crosses my fingers.*

Last night I went to the gym. I started out with Cardio, tread mill and the bike, and that hurt while I was doing it. Then went to the other things and lifted things and pushed things and pulled things, and it burned while I was doing that too. Then the last machine was one where you have to close your thighs on the machine and it had a little burn to it.

Then I hit the showers. OMG THE SHOWERS! The feeling was SO incredible! To actually have a shower that works to the full extent and not having to worry about the hot water running out, someone needing to use the bathroom while your in there, not having the water smell, or feeling like you have stuff still on your skin after you just washed.. It was SO nice!

Anyways, this morning when I woke up, I felt nothing but my normally morning pains of sleeping on my right side for too long. There were no sore achy muscles or joints that hurt when you move.. Nothing. I’m a little disappointed. I’ll have to work harder tomorrow after I get out of Michigan Works.

I’m not entirely sure how to go about writing something like this. Its not an easy battle with myself to talk about. This battle being my weight..

I’ve always hated the way I looked. I remember back when I was younger my brother would always call me a cow. This being before middle school even started. I’ve never felt all that great about myself, always feeling that need for MORE attention and more satisfactions from others to make myself feel better. Always having that want for more of everything.. even food.

My mom has always said that I started to gain weight when I moved out to my dads back when we had lived in Charlotte. I honestly cant really remember when, but I do remember feeling bad about myself when Danna would take me clothes shopping and we’d have to go up several sizes in pants for me because I was a bigger girl.

There have been times in my life that I’ve said to myself.. “Oh, I’ll never get that big,” or, “I swear if I get that big, I’ll shoot myself or having someone do it for me.” Well, I’m bigger then what I ever wanted to be.

freshmen year in HS(2005): 198 lbs

Senior year in HS (2009): 220 lbs

Current…(2012): 266 lbs

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Now is when I’ll start my battle with my eating habits, my craving for food, and myself.

Everyone has new year resolutions, but me, I’ve made promises to myself instead. Promises to make ME feel better about myself.